Showing posts with label New York. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New York. Show all posts

Tuesday, 30 October 2007

Seeing the essential






The little prince.
" What is essential is invisible to the eye " the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.
" It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important"
" It is the time I have wasted for my rose " said the little prince, so that he would be sure to remember.
" Men have forgotten this truth, " said the fox. " But you must not forget it. You become responsible , forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose....."
I am responsible for my rose, " the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.


I loved reading this book, a simple story with quite a profound message its one I go back to every now and again, so that I am sure to remember.


Im feeling much more positive today, hopeful even, that from here on in its forward. Some will walk with dignity and self respect, others may have to be dragged, screaming but forward it is....
I had one of those aha moments last night and got that wonderful peaceful feeling that comes with enlightenment. There is no way back, no side stepping, no fudging the time has come!


Enough of that...Today my passport came through much to my relief. This trip came as a bit of a surprise to say the least, it was only when I looked for my passport that I opened it and realised it had just run out a month previous, so two weeks ago I sent for a new one......It came today...Phew!!!!!! Confirmation that this is meant to be perhaps.


Right now I know Im going to have a wonderful time in New York, my mind wont be focused on any divorce, I will be flying and free of that for 5 whole days, wasting time with my lovely diva of a daughter Laura.


Laura landed in L.A, coming through customs with Emma Bunton who has gone to join up with her fellow spice girls. One of the photographers decided to start taking pictures of Laura, for some reason unbeknown to her. Although looking at the youtube of her arrival, Im wondering if they mistook her for Emma, especially if she was wearing her sunglasses

Others followed his lead and apparently one of them was heard to ask amid all the glare and flashbulbs " Who is she?" . Laura said it was quite scary, I cant help but smile, poor darling and excuse me " Who is she " how dare they!!!!! She is my girl..lol
Such a fickle and fleeting thing... fame

Monday, 22 October 2007

THE BIG APPLE

Ive given up trying to fathom myself out I think..acceptance of the now seems to be the order of the day..felt as if Ive been living in the land of Limbo for some time and to be positive its much better than some other places Ive felt trapped in, so patience..a little more patience is all thats needed.

Im keeping my feet firmly on the ground as far as the final hearing going ahead on the 16th of November is concerned, not allowing myself to fly away with the notion that this time it will definitely be closure, and perhaps its seeping into all areas of my being when it need not. Its like the shadow in the distance that will either finally disintegrate or hang around for a while longer, what is it they say...Never fear the shadows it means there is a light shining nearby.

In the meantime my flight is booked for New York and even as I write this its feels as if its someone else Im writing about and not me which is ridiculous. When I tell myself it is me..I feel the excitement, the fear, the anticipation...It is ME!!!! Im flying on the 8th of November from Aberdeen to Amsterdam and on to New York city for 5 whole days. Back to work for one day and then.....Well hopefully no more waiting.

Manhatten in the fall, Central Park in all it colours, falling leaves, fresh crisp air and the Statue of Liberty...symbolic? Leading onward as nature does, to Paris in the spring with Alan (a city he would love to visit my surprise, my thankyou for his being him) a loyal friend, a good man, generous with his heart.

There, the shadow doesnt have the power to block the view nor obliterate the colour after all.